Alzheimer diary

My experience of living with my husband of thirty years who is spiraling down through Alzheimer's. My daily experiences living with him on a sheep farm, and memories of things past.

• Chapter 1 - The Beginning, edited 2/24/08"After my husband's diagnosi..."
• Chapter 2 - Diary Refocus (Edited 1/09/08) "My experience of living wit..."
• Chapter 3 - Bad dreams (reedited 1/9/08)"My dreams help me face the ..."
• Chapter 4 - Memories, Light and Dark (Edited 1/9/08)"This writing of the diary i..."
• Chapter 5 - Will I survive this? (Edited 1/10/08)"My husband deteriorates, I ..."
• Chapter 6 - More memories, with Dave, my very early childhood. (edited 1/10/08)"I live in the today of my h..."
• Chapter 7 - Ah, how can we leave? (Edited 1/9/08)"Dave's changes, my decision..."
• Chapter 8 - I am weary (edited 1/10/08)"Life and death on the farm,..."
• Chapter 9 - More segue present and past, (Edited 1/10/08)"Dave still connects in his ..."
• Chapter 10 - Dependency, Edited 1/10/08"Needing to care more and mo..."
• Chapter 11 - Memories of our experiences, some of the children (Edited 1/10/08)"More memories and bits of o..."
• Chapter 12 - More of the same, Dave, ruminations, Edited 1/11/08"Further insights into the l..."
• Chapter 13 - Decisions, decisions, or let it be. (Edited 1/11/08)"Thinking about the future, ..."
• Chapter 14 - Staying honest with myself, history (Edited 1/12/08)"The only way to survive thi..."
• Chapter 15 - Just waiting. Edited 1/12/08"Trying to understand my hus..."
• Chapter 16 - Looking at myself, Dave's changing, (Edited 1/13/08)"I do not where he is, where..."
• Chapter 17 - Wasn't that a fine time? (Edited 1/13/08)"More of my own memories, an..."
• Chapter 18 - Contemplating the events of my own death,(Edited 1/13/08)"Our cat is stuck in the att..."
• Chapter 19 - Art; Simone and Dave (Edited 1/13/08)"Looking at the role of arti..."
• Chapter 20 - A Cosmic Joke (Edited 1/13/08)"Well, it has been a very go..."
• Chapter 21 - Am I lost? Intro added,(Edited 1/13/07)"Recounting the emotional pr..."
• Chapter 22 - On and on and on, (Edited 1/13/07)"Working through the decisio..."
• Chapter 23 - The right now and back to the early relationship, (Edited 1/26/08)"Moving back and forth betwe..."
• Chapter 24 - A Relief? (Edited 1/26/08) "My experience of living wit..."
• Chapter 25 - I want to fly (Edited 1/26/08)"Trying to stay honest...dis..."
• Chapter 26 - Just more, and more, and more (Edited 11/26/08)"Past present and future......."
• Chapter 27 - My anger and more memories (Edited 1/26/08)"Working through, revering o..."
• Chapter 28 - Grandkids here (last Edit 1/26/08)"New eyes for me through the..."
• Chapter 29 - Some slamming going on (Edited 12/13/07)"I am testy, with my beloved..."
• Chapter 30 - Ok, I’ve got it now. (Edited 1/26/08)"What is the difference betw..."
• Chapter 31 - Love again, Death, again (Edited 1/26/08) "My experience of living wit..."
• Chapter 32 - Imaginations (Edited 1/26/08)"What if it were different,w..."
• Chapter 33 - Another year please (Edited 1/29/08)"More of the same living, lo..."
• Chapter 34 - I really do not know what I am doing here (Edited 2/1/08) "My experience of living wit..."
• Chapter 35 - Using men? (Edited 2/1/08)"More on my garden as metaph..."
• Chapter 36 - Racing, racing through my life (Edited 2/1/08)"Everything is so close to t..."
• Chapter 37 - Shit happens (Edited 2/1/08 "My experience of living wit..."
• Chapter 38 - Epilogue (Edited 02/1/08)"No doubt I will go over thi..."